Never the bride...

I just talked about weddings with a guy from work, when he pulled a line from a movie about "always being the bridesmaid and never the bride". The words stuck in my head, and I couldn't help but wondering...will that be my reality? OK, I've only been a bridemaid once, but been a guest at about 10 weddings...

I was never a teenager dreaming about "the perfect wedding" like some girls do... Sure, I've thought about it and have a picture of it in my head, but it's nothing that I'm fixated about or dreaming about at night. I have always felt like my wedding day is far away...and to be honest, I have doubts it will ever be close... Not that I wouldn't want to, but because I just can't imgaine being that secure and happy in a relationship that I would walk down the aisle with a guy. It would be a wonderful feeling I'm sure, but also a scary one... Is he the one for me? What if I have doubts before the ceremony... How can I know for sure that "this is it"?

Well, before asking that question, I guess I should have "the one" or "one of the ones" to consider. Which I don't... So, I guess that's why I'm at 33 wondering if I will always will be the bridesmaid or in my case the guest at other peoples weddings? What if it will never be my turn? I guess I would miss to be the center of attention of the greatest party ever, but other than that I'll be OK. I think. I hope. I know. I...do!